Back 2 School

Otay....time to det back to school. Yesterday was the first day back....and my sixteenth birthday. Yipee. It felt like nobody knew or even cared. A few friends said "happy birthday" but that was only after I reminded them. AND....I didn't even get to see Dan! I don't have a single dang class with him!!!! It sucks! But the good thing about last night....Little Larry called me. I talked to him for a whole half hour. Miraculous isn't it? He asked if I got his presents, asked when i opened them (i wasnt supposed to until yesterday but I opened them over the weekend already), and asked what was up with the fam and what not. So it was a nice little convo. Well i gotta go...class is soon over. L8ter Sk8terz!

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update time!!!

Well...I fessed up to that guy I like..turns out he apparently liked me cause he said yes when I asked him out. I dunno. But now for the confusing part...I don't know EXACTLY how he feels about me. See...I found out the hard way that he NEVER TALKS!!!!! OK well never is a little bit of a stretch but still...it's pretty close. I just kinda wish he'd tell me things...and give me straight answers at least SOMETIMES!!! OK...now I know how my mom feels, YIKES! But....*sighs* I can't really say anything to him...cause well...I've tried! he I guess doesn't take hints well. No subtlety for him..uh-uh. Hehe. i still mean what i said in my last post. I miss the touch of someone that i love and loves me. I miss the kisses, everything. So far...I've only gotten to kisses on the cheek...and I'm the one giving them.....which i don't mind but...i don't know. I wish he would make a move on me or something...but i don't want to tell him this to his face or otherwise he might think I'm some sort of a skank...IN WHICH I'M NOT! Guess there isn't much I can do...especially since I'm kind of scared to tell him how I feel and that. *sigh* well....at least I know he's there for me. He is a big help with my self esteem and that. But the only problem...he is FORCING me to try out for musical.....I don't do well in front of crowds....and...well...I kinda don't have a choice now. lol...he'll force me onto the stage and make me sing...and everything! And I don't doubt for a second that he wont literally drag me onto the stage to do just that. Yeah well....like I said...nothing I can do. I know I'm like rambling now so....main points...i need to get my boyfriend to talk more...i need to figure out a way to tell him how I feel...and...i love him no matter what ^_^...there is your summary hehe!

someone shoot me.

ok...i know the title sounds strange but i really think it's appropriate. Last night...i had a dream about my ex-boyfriend, Jeremy. And now (this is where the title comes into play) i miss. him. Today i was sitting outside and i was like holding my hands together....then thats when i realized why i missed my ex and wanted a boyfriend. I miss having someone hold my hand, the touch of someone else's skin against mine (i know i know). I like the feeling of someone i love close to me like that. Sometimes just thinking of a guy I like holding my hand and caressing it or my face gives me goosebumps and sends chills up my spine. I love those feelings. Now for those perverts sitting there reading this....i dont mean in sexual terms......just holding hands or hugging...THATS IT!!!! understood? But yeah.... I wish i was braver so i could just fess up to this guy i like already and figure out wheather he like me or not already. wish me luck...lord knows i need it.

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in school...

That is where I'm at right now. Not in detention...or ISS...just in class. To my surprise, I can't get on my blog but I can add posts. Which is good for me...I think.
OK. This is really weird or bad for me or whatever. I had a dream about this guy i THOUGHT I USED to have a crush on. his name is Andy and he's a Junior in our school. he's really cute and nice....one problem. HE LIKES SOMEBODY ELSE!!! I thought I was over him but then I had a dream about him saturday night. The dream went like this: We are in our school auditorim. (I think there are other people there but I don't remember) I'm sitting beside him and He has his arm on the rest between us. I try to put my arm there but I accidentally bump him. I look at him to apologize but then he turns to me and just smiles. I turned back to watch the movie (cause that's what we are doing in the auditorium) and he puts his arm around me. That's it...that's my dream. So that's what i'm worried about. I'm worried because I don't know what to do!!!!

Alright..here goes.

OK. I know you guys don't like me. 'Why' you ask? Because I never update!!! *smacks self* bad girl! BAD! He he he, sorry 'bout that.

Have you ever had some days where you see so many different romantic things and you say to yourself....God I wish I had that! Well, that's whats been happening to me a lot lately. I've been reading the series Meru Puri. that has TONS of romance in it. it makes me feel kind of depressed but it's like a happy depressed. if that makes any sense at all. I don't know what to do. I want a boyfriend SO bad but no guy that i know would date me...not for the life of them (hint hint: they're all jerks or jocks...take yer pick). So that doesn't help matters much. Plus i had a boyfriend about two or three weeks ago...but he broke up with me because I "move too slow". How shallow is that?!? Anyways, so now I'm single again and reading the romantic books, seeing the romantic movies (AMVs included!), and seeing all the couples in my hallways makes me very uneasy and REALLY down in the dumps. But I was thinking about this one guy. His name is Jeff and I sit with him everyday at lunch and his buddy Zach (and this was Friday) said that from a distance me and Jeff looked like a couple sitting together. Probably because I was sitting like only six inches away from him. I don't try that on purpose, my chair just somehow ends up close to his all the time. It's weird. But see, if I were to date him, I wouldn't know what to do with him because He likes hunting...a lot....and I would never be able to shoot an animal in my life. I can stand fishing but...other than that...forget it! Anyways, I feel like I shouldn't even consider him cause he's such a brute! No sensitivity for women once-so ever...it sickens me sometimes...to hear him and Zach talk about such inappropriate things at the lunch table. I could smack 'em upside the head sometimes! But....if I'm seriously considering going out with him...then either I am gravely ill or I'm seriously desperate. So...thats about all. Me and my love life is about all I could think to write about. So....if you have any comments er whatever.....please leave one!!!