in school...

That is where I'm at right now. Not in detention...or ISS...just in class. To my surprise, I can't get on my blog but I can add posts. Which is good for me...I think.
OK. This is really weird or bad for me or whatever. I had a dream about this guy i THOUGHT I USED to have a crush on. his name is Andy and he's a Junior in our school. he's really cute and nice....one problem. HE LIKES SOMEBODY ELSE!!! I thought I was over him but then I had a dream about him saturday night. The dream went like this: We are in our school auditorim. (I think there are other people there but I don't remember) I'm sitting beside him and He has his arm on the rest between us. I try to put my arm there but I accidentally bump him. I look at him to apologize but then he turns to me and just smiles. I turned back to watch the movie (cause that's what we are doing in the auditorium) and he puts his arm around me. That's it...that's my dream. So that's what i'm worried about. I'm worried because I don't know what to do!!!!

Alright..here goes.

OK. I know you guys don't like me. 'Why' you ask? Because I never update!!! *smacks self* bad girl! BAD! He he he, sorry 'bout that.

Have you ever had some days where you see so many different romantic things and you say to yourself....God I wish I had that! Well, that's whats been happening to me a lot lately. I've been reading the series Meru Puri. that has TONS of romance in it. it makes me feel kind of depressed but it's like a happy depressed. if that makes any sense at all. I don't know what to do. I want a boyfriend SO bad but no guy that i know would date me...not for the life of them (hint hint: they're all jerks or jocks...take yer pick). So that doesn't help matters much. Plus i had a boyfriend about two or three weeks ago...but he broke up with me because I "move too slow". How shallow is that?!? Anyways, so now I'm single again and reading the romantic books, seeing the romantic movies (AMVs included!), and seeing all the couples in my hallways makes me very uneasy and REALLY down in the dumps. But I was thinking about this one guy. His name is Jeff and I sit with him everyday at lunch and his buddy Zach (and this was Friday) said that from a distance me and Jeff looked like a couple sitting together. Probably because I was sitting like only six inches away from him. I don't try that on purpose, my chair just somehow ends up close to his all the time. It's weird. But see, if I were to date him, I wouldn't know what to do with him because He likes hunting...a lot....and I would never be able to shoot an animal in my life. I can stand fishing but...other than that...forget it! Anyways, I feel like I shouldn't even consider him cause he's such a brute! No sensitivity for women once-so ever...it sickens me sometimes...to hear him and Zach talk about such inappropriate things at the lunch table. I could smack 'em upside the head sometimes! But....if I'm seriously considering going out with him...then either I am gravely ill or I'm seriously desperate. So...thats about all. Me and my love life is about all I could think to write about. So....if you have any comments er whatever.....please leave one!!!