Continuance...

Sorry i didnt get my posts up for.....two or three days. I tried to yesterday in class but the school's internet was messed up so it didnt save my post.

OK....here goes. two nights ago, I had a VERY nice long conversation with my boyfriend. And it was very enlightening....a few tears were shed on my part but....it was TECHNICALLY his fault but it wasn't ABOUT him. We were talking about things happening for a reason....and I said about my dad's passing, he said that too had a reason behind it. He said,"Maybe God was just calling him home." Well, hearing that...even coming from him....I lost it. I started crying and I apologized like five times. He said to stop apologizing cause I didn't do anything wrong. I listened to him and stopped. Then we got on the subject of my friends. A few of my friends and I were having a slight quarrel I guess you could say. Well, from his perspective, fighting with friends is kind of stupid. Now him, he can't stay mad or hold a grudge or anything like that. I envy him so much for that. He offered some more advice, call my one friend and apologize, since I waned to take a break from some of my friends, to not do it leaving on bad terms. So, I took his advice and called Chiyo as soon as I hung up with him. I felt a bit better, but the sadness I still felt was because of my dad.

On a happier note, I got to wear his jersey yesterday. It was awkward for me. Especially given the fact that he's a jock (football) and i have never in my wildest dreams imagined I'd be dating a football player. Go figure. HAH. But....I had five people ask who's jersey it was, maybe three people ask if we are dating ( which is a " YEAH DUH!" kinda thing), and i had two of the football players say hi to me in the morning, i know both of them, the one i have art class with and the other i met last year while i was at practice for the musical BUT i can't remember his name. Sorry to whoever that was ^_^. For some reason...two days ago, the football team was making fun of Dan for having me as a girlfriend. The guy i know from elementary school who is ALSO on the football team and in my math class said that it's not an everyday thing that Dan has a girlfriend. Which I slightly understand. Not too many people can handle him (since they all claim that he's arrogant and/or cocky) But i still love him ^_^! His varisty football game is tonight and I have to perform for color gaurd there. We're performing before the game though. The other team's band is playing at half time. FUN! And then of course....the junior varsity ame (which he is a starter on) i can only make it there about half way to 3/4 of it being over! Stupid school (not actual school.....Sylvan.) I'd only get there around 11 cause I sylvan til 10:30! GRRRRRR! and i don't think his coaches are dumb enough to keep him in the WHOLE game....but I am gonna wear his jersey tonight over my uniform and tomorrow when i see him (if i see him) so i can give it back ^_^ cause he kinda needs it for away games. no? Anyways.....thats my game plan. Hopefully it works. ^_^ wish me luck and hopefully our team wins since da band wil be there ^_^!

someone shoot me.

ok...i know the title sounds strange but i really think it's appropriate. Last night...i had a dream about my ex-boyfriend, Jeremy. And now (this is where the title comes into play) i miss. him. Today i was sitting outside and i was like holding my hands together....then thats when i realized why i missed my ex and wanted a boyfriend. I miss having someone hold my hand, the touch of someone else's skin against mine (i know i know). I like the feeling of someone i love close to me like that. Sometimes just thinking of a guy I like holding my hand and caressing it or my face gives me goosebumps and sends chills up my spine. I love those feelings. Now for those perverts sitting there reading this....i dont mean in sexual terms......just holding hands or hugging...THATS IT!!!! understood? But yeah.... I wish i was braver so i could just fess up to this guy i like already and figure out wheather he like me or not already. wish me luck...lord knows i need it.

Another Day of My Life

Well, I made it through yet another day of school, and live to tell the tale! Ha ha ha ha! I didn't get to see my crush yet.....well except in the hallways as I pass by him but....yeah. ANYWHO!
We lost yet another game. But we are getting better! We lost 15-6 yesterday but we got our butts handed to us the other two times we played that team. just goes to show that practice doesn't make perfect but it does make perminent. That's what My eighth grade Reading teacher used to say. thankz Mr. C.!
I'm gonna have to Put something for you folks on this dang site of mine soon or y'all gonna get mad at me. welp....time to get crafty!
Ja Ne!
-Me