OK. Me and Kayoru were playing truth or dare the other night. I dared him to wear the girliest costume he could find to the band Halloween costume party on Thursday, and he dared me to kiss him...he said on Saturday but he's not gonna be there so I'm gonna do it today. Well....I'm a little too intelligent for him. Instead of actually Kissing him....I'm gonna Hershey Kiss him. ROFLMAOSHIAPMP!!!! He has no idea. I'm so clever (^_____^). But i digress. So this should be fun.....gotta go!
Rindoshi
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Monday, October 27, 2008
my weekend
OK....my weekend KIND OF stank. Since Thursday, i have been having some issues with my one friend from color guard. Over my new BF. It's actually her ex...and he was going out with her the very day before he asked me out. So.....now it seems that the band isn't too happy with him because of what he did to her. Apparently they aren't taking into consideration how this makes ME feel. The proof of this problem is on Saturday. We had our cavalcade on Saturday. We got fourth place just for the record. And i messed up REALLY bad.......I'll explain in a bit. But on the way home....some people were calling him a "man whore" and it was really pissing him off. I feel responsible for this...i have no idea why but i do. I have like three people saying it isn't my fault but...i don't listen. And I never meant to hurt this friend. Like i said to her on Thursday night. Sisters before misters. If anything else goes wrong between me and her because of him.....i honestly dunno what to do. But for now me and her have things sorted out and its done with...for now though. And me and Kayoru (nickname)....we are very happy together. At the cavalcade.....he comforted me when i was bawling my eyes out because of my mistake...and he had his arm around me the whole time for the rest of the night. But now to talk about this "mistake" i made.
OK.....we have four songs throughout our show. During the last one, we switch flags. I had not been paying attention to which flag i was grabbing because i was to focused on my scarf which had fallen off anyways. So, i grabbed the wrong flag!!!!! I grabbed the silver one again instead of our copper ones. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Thank god i realised this and didn't use it! That would have been even worse. But that was my huge ass mistake. And i feel like our fourth place score was because of me....even though it probably wasn't ALL my fault. But i still feel like it was because that's a HUGE mistake....*sigh* But i just have to focus on whats ahead of me and PRAY that i never do that again. Because if i do....i will be very upset and probably go into hiding for about a week. Just saying.
So other than my drama, getting a BF, messing up big time at CG....and anything else i might have done, My weekend has been pretty OK.
OK.....we have four songs throughout our show. During the last one, we switch flags. I had not been paying attention to which flag i was grabbing because i was to focused on my scarf which had fallen off anyways. So, i grabbed the wrong flag!!!!! I grabbed the silver one again instead of our copper ones. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Thank god i realised this and didn't use it! That would have been even worse. But that was my huge ass mistake. And i feel like our fourth place score was because of me....even though it probably wasn't ALL my fault. But i still feel like it was because that's a HUGE mistake....*sigh* But i just have to focus on whats ahead of me and PRAY that i never do that again. Because if i do....i will be very upset and probably go into hiding for about a week. Just saying.
So other than my drama, getting a BF, messing up big time at CG....and anything else i might have done, My weekend has been pretty OK.
Friday, October 24, 2008
*sigh*
Today Kinda stank. We had a bomb threat at our school today...stood outside in freezing cold weather for nearly three hours, couldn't do much of anything cept talk. So....i stood there and talked with my friend austin. He's my buddy ^_^. And the real kicker of my week.....my zune has crapped out on me, they can't do a single thing for it because of two ITTY BITTY little cracks in it...so....*hangs head in shame* i gave into the iPod. I now have a silver ipod nano 8GB. Its really nice. So far atleast. Im spending my night putting songs and that on it so i have entertainment for tomorrow. wish me luck!
Speaking of tomorrow....i get to hang wit my new BF a bit. His name is kyle and he's in band with me....well...he on the actual band, im just the CG. But it's kinda....strange so far. ke he must like to move somewhat fast....that scares me a bit. but i can deal.
Welp, thats all for now. got work to do. Night y'all!
Speaking of tomorrow....i get to hang wit my new BF a bit. His name is kyle and he's in band with me....well...he on the actual band, im just the CG. But it's kinda....strange so far. ke he must like to move somewhat fast....that scares me a bit. but i can deal.
Welp, thats all for now. got work to do. Night y'all!
Friday, October 10, 2008
GRRRRR( my angry little blurb)
AAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!! *talking fast* MY WRIST HURTS (BOTH OF EM NO LESS...but on and off), I TALKED TO DAN BUT WAS SHAKING AFTERWARDS, AND I STILL HAVE HOMEWORK FROM LAST NIGHT THAT NEEDS TO BE DONE YET! AAAAHHHHHHH...ok...i'm done. Just needed to get that out of my system. I'm feeling a little stressed and with people and school and Color Guard...and pain that goes with it...things aren't getting any easier.
Ok...NOW i'm done...byez!
Ok...NOW i'm done...byez!
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
im bored and stupid...nice to meet you!
Alright, I SHOULD be working on my final draft for English....but instead, I'm on here writing and reading. I was reading some of my previous entries from this past week.....realizing how much of a dunce that i am....and continued reading. I also say I'm a dunce because of what the frick i did yesterday. Here goes:
Yesterday I had to stay after school for detention...which REALLY wasn't all that bad, in fact it helped me because i got all my Spanish homework done in it (^_^)....but after i was done with that, i went and hung out with Bo for a bit (Dan's friend) and then that made me want to go to Dan's football game (JV). So....The girl that was coming in to help us with color guard a bit showed up...i did warm ups with her and did a few dance things (which will definitely help me but not TOO much)....then we went down to the practice field (marching band's, not football's) and I went to the game for like five minutes. Well, he was there....i didn't get to see him play, why you may ask? Because he hurt himself (his ankle) and was on the bench for a bit! I wanted to call him last night after girl scouts was over but it was too late and he was probably sacked out by then. So i wanted to talk to him today......which i will...but for two reasons. One to see if he's alright....and two....and this one may seem dumb....but i kinda wanted to necklace i gave him back. Its a two part set. The one is the black part of yin and yang that has a white gem....i have that one....the white one with the black gem...i gave that to him, and i kinda want i back for the simple reason....it's kind of a boyfriend girlfriend thing to have them....and we aren't boyfriend and girlfriend anymore so.....whats the point of him having it? i mean he doesn't wear it anyways, so.....yea. I just hope he doesnt try to make a fuss over it. That would be bad. Welp, gotta go.....class is soon over and we have to get the computers shut down. MATTA NE!!!!!!
Yesterday I had to stay after school for detention...which REALLY wasn't all that bad, in fact it helped me because i got all my Spanish homework done in it (^_^)....but after i was done with that, i went and hung out with Bo for a bit (Dan's friend) and then that made me want to go to Dan's football game (JV). So....The girl that was coming in to help us with color guard a bit showed up...i did warm ups with her and did a few dance things (which will definitely help me but not TOO much)....then we went down to the practice field (marching band's, not football's) and I went to the game for like five minutes. Well, he was there....i didn't get to see him play, why you may ask? Because he hurt himself (his ankle) and was on the bench for a bit! I wanted to call him last night after girl scouts was over but it was too late and he was probably sacked out by then. So i wanted to talk to him today......which i will...but for two reasons. One to see if he's alright....and two....and this one may seem dumb....but i kinda wanted to necklace i gave him back. Its a two part set. The one is the black part of yin and yang that has a white gem....i have that one....the white one with the black gem...i gave that to him, and i kinda want i back for the simple reason....it's kind of a boyfriend girlfriend thing to have them....and we aren't boyfriend and girlfriend anymore so.....whats the point of him having it? i mean he doesn't wear it anyways, so.....yea. I just hope he doesnt try to make a fuss over it. That would be bad. Welp, gotta go.....class is soon over and we have to get the computers shut down. MATTA NE!!!!!!
Monday, October 6, 2008
School so far....
It's only second period...BUT....Today has been fairly decent so far. I find out that i needed my practice flag for tonight...if i wanted to improve on my basics, this one girl who is friends with our saber instructor, she is coming to help us on basics and tosses and stuff tonight. BUUUUT, i don't have my practice flag with me, and i have to stay after school today because i have detention (for 3 tardies without notes) SO, that should be fun. OH, and my grandma has to pick me up at six thirty (so I'm only gonna get an hour with this lady) to take me home so i can help with our girl scout "cooking night" thing. We're working on badge and we have to cook a full course meal, then there is something about setting tables and whatever else my mom decides to do. FUN eh?
I am trying so hard not to think about Dan-kun. ITS SO HARD! I still like him (oh and all those bad things you heard about him from my blog in which he commented.....ignore them completely. They're not true ^_^) and i want to still date him....kedo....he's too busy to have a relationship with anyone (girlfriend wise). So i have to move on....and it's not going to be easy with FREAKING AUTUMN CONSTANTLY TALKING ABOUT DAN AND BO!!!!!!!!! Good god she knows how to drive a girl insane. So.....i don't know what i'm gonna do. I even highly doubt im going to homecoming. It would be just a sad reminder that i have no one who loves me (romanticly) in my life. I know thats a bit dramatic but once you think about it...it's true.
Anyways, if anyone has any ideas or comments about my previous entry (*sigh* from sunday, october 5th) please leave em (^_^) i need all the help i can get. Time to get back to work....MATTA NE!
I am trying so hard not to think about Dan-kun. ITS SO HARD! I still like him (oh and all those bad things you heard about him from my blog in which he commented.....ignore them completely. They're not true ^_^) and i want to still date him....kedo....he's too busy to have a relationship with anyone (girlfriend wise). So i have to move on....and it's not going to be easy with FREAKING AUTUMN CONSTANTLY TALKING ABOUT DAN AND BO!!!!!!!!! Good god she knows how to drive a girl insane. So.....i don't know what i'm gonna do. I even highly doubt im going to homecoming. It would be just a sad reminder that i have no one who loves me (romanticly) in my life. I know thats a bit dramatic but once you think about it...it's true.
Anyways, if anyone has any ideas or comments about my previous entry (*sigh* from sunday, october 5th) please leave em (^_^) i need all the help i can get. Time to get back to work....MATTA NE!
Sunday, October 5, 2008
*sigh*
Who here is easily discouraged? *raises hand* Yea.....I'm an aspiring artist...and i get discouraged VERY easily. We are doing portraits in art and I decided to do my one friend Mia. She took a picture of herself (just her face you pervs).....so i decided to use that. But (and this is where the first sentence comes in) It's not coming out like the picture and I'm starting to get very discouraged. Like i want to scratch the entire thing...but i daresn't do that. I don't know how else to improve on my techniques or my overall attitude about it (art). Like I'm always frustrated because in my mind everything is detailed and elaborate and beautiful.but on paper....it looks like crap...plain and simple. I never like it. Well...sometimes I'm amazed at what comes out but i haven't gotten any result like that in a long time. But i want to improve so bad. A lot of my friends on deviant Art and even in school (of the few friends i actually have) they are so ch better than i a....I'm so far behind....i obviously am not going to be able to catch up in a year or so. I want to be able to go to college for Graphic design with confidence....but at this rate that won't happen.
This is the part where i sund pathetic and desperate....If anyone has ideas on how to improve my art....or my attitude towards it...plaese leave a comment. And please don't say to just practice....cause i have heard it so many times it isnt funny. But any other comment is greatly appreciated. ARIGATO GOZAIMASU *bows* (^_^) sorry....just had to do that.
L8ter Sk8terz!
This is the part where i sund pathetic and desperate....If anyone has ideas on how to improve my art....or my attitude towards it...plaese leave a comment. And please don't say to just practice....cause i have heard it so many times it isnt funny. But any other comment is greatly appreciated. ARIGATO GOZAIMASU *bows* (^_^) sorry....just had to do that.
L8ter Sk8terz!
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