my weekend

OK....my weekend KIND OF stank. Since Thursday, i have been having some issues with my one friend from color guard. Over my new BF. It's actually her ex...and he was going out with her the very day before he asked me out. So.....now it seems that the band isn't too happy with him because of what he did to her. Apparently they aren't taking into consideration how this makes ME feel. The proof of this problem is on Saturday. We had our cavalcade on Saturday. We got fourth place just for the record. And i messed up REALLY bad.......I'll explain in a bit. But on the way home....some people were calling him a "man whore" and it was really pissing him off. I feel responsible for this...i have no idea why but i do. I have like three people saying it isn't my fault but...i don't listen. And I never meant to hurt this friend. Like i said to her on Thursday night. Sisters before misters. If anything else goes wrong between me and her because of him.....i honestly dunno what to do. But for now me and her have things sorted out and its done with...for now though. And me and Kayoru (nickname)....we are very happy together. At the cavalcade.....he comforted me when i was bawling my eyes out because of my mistake...and he had his arm around me the whole time for the rest of the night. But now to talk about this "mistake" i made.

OK.....we have four songs throughout our show. During the last one, we switch flags. I had not been paying attention to which flag i was grabbing because i was to focused on my scarf which had fallen off anyways. So, i grabbed the wrong flag!!!!! I grabbed the silver one again instead of our copper ones. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Thank god i realised this and didn't use it! That would have been even worse. But that was my huge ass mistake. And i feel like our fourth place score was because of me....even though it probably wasn't ALL my fault. But i still feel like it was because that's a HUGE mistake....*sigh* But i just have to focus on whats ahead of me and PRAY that i never do that again. Because if i do....i will be very upset and probably go into hiding for about a week. Just saying.

So other than my drama, getting a BF, messing up big time at CG....and anything else i might have done, My weekend has been pretty OK.