just woke up...

OK.....like it said. I just woke up. From my "cat nap" and i slept for four hours....now....i want to go BACK to sleep soon because I gotta get up fer school tomorrow, and I'd rather not be tired (^_^) Since of course Dan's dad is picking me up and we are going to the football game right away. It's an away game so that's why. Any my mom is probably working tomorrow....and I dunno where it is or when it starts. SOOOOO......yea. Like for some reason I want to see my BF play....yet I don't understand a THING about the sport. So i have to have him (if he EVER gets time), his dad (whom I have only met twice and probably am not going to really talk to tomorrow) or his friend who goes to all the football games (and is ALWAYS preoccupied with my new friend who like to hold his hand but wont ask the boy out) explain this game to me.

Anyways, I better get off soon, don't want to ruin my sleep pattern. Later folks!

*sigh*

I can't believe this. I didn't even get to sleep in today! I had to go do volunteer work for G-Scouts and it was hard! I had to wash trays for three hours at our town fair. Fun ....NOT. I completely forgot about it until this morning when my mom woke me up...and I wanted to hang with Dan today. Well....that didn't happen either because he went over to his cousin's house. Andy is my friend too but...i was really looking forward to hanging with Dan. I wasn't going to make him choose...but....we NEVER get to see each other! It really sucks! I can't hang with him next Saturday either....I have my 16th B-day party but also.....he's uber busy. I really want to do something nice for him for HIS 16th birthday...but...we never have any time to really hang. It's frustrating and I don't know what to do. I HATE THIS! I had one er two classes with him last year and now that we are finally dating, we never see a glimpse of one another. UGH! I wanna ask someone...like my art teacher for advice. Cause neither him nor I know what to do about this. And its really starting to bug me.

I'm like super tired right now and even Danny boy said to go to sleep. So I'm gonna listen to him for once and take a nap. I'll be back on a bit later (gotta meet a deadline and amount of posts on this since I'm graded on it for engrish class. hehe)

*screams bloody murder*

I GIVE UP!!!!!! In other words....today sucked beyond belief!!!!! Practice went horribly and our cavalcade...don't GET me started! We came in fifth....OUT OF SIX BANDS! I'm glad we didn't get last, don't get me wrong about that...but we deserved AT LEAST third place. I mean come on....our show was one of thee most difficult ones there....and we puled it off....well everyone except me. I sucked SO bad...i screwed up almost the ENTIRE second song. And the third song...eh that was OK...and the fourth...OMG that's the one that sucked majorly. I screwed up so bad....and the band suffered because of my stupidity. *hangs head in shame* And the fact that we kept getting yelled at by our seniors and instructors....didn't help. Ms. senior thing 1 decides she's gonna be miss bossy and I got chewed out for a lot of stuff.....well a few times it was the guard in general...but still. When we were practicing I was getting so stressed and sh*t because of people....I was...and probably still am....considering the option of quitting. I can't take this. It's too stressful and.....UGH. I have such a hard time with a lot of the work AND the people there and I....don't always get along....in fact there is always some kind of drama in guard. Man....this officially sucks!! Maybe i should talk to someone intelligent and honest...*cough cough* Dan *cough cough* about this. He'll help me...i know it. I don't want to quit because my mom has spent so much money on me to do this....like we probably put close to $100 into this......and I feel obligated to finish it out because..well....i don't want it to go for nothing. So...talking to her feels like a swayed vote. But with my Danny boy.....he couldn't care less whether i quit or not...well maybe he CARES but it wouldn't affect him any. So.....yeah.Welp...im tired beyond comprehension so im going to bed ^_^ Night Y'all!

friday night football....WUUUUUW

Our team did awesome tonight. They won...again! that's....three wins no losses ^_^ yay! Our band didn't have to play tonight...but some of us showed up anyways. That's probably why we won. ANYWAYS....
OMG.....I got to hang out with Dan after the game a bit...OMG. I didn't want to leave....AT ALL. We were in the band hall....hugging...like constantly. As in...we were kinda never separated ^_^. But...one part that definitely stands out in my memory....and i probably will never forget this...He was hugging me from behind...like he had his arms around my shoulders and we looked like right across from us and saw in the glass....our reflection (obviously). But when we looked, he comes off and says "oh isn't that a cute reflection". I think i turned almost bright red and just.....UGH i don't really remember what i did. probably just giggled. But before that he's like "yeah I'm not good at this whole 'clingy' stuff" I just said that he could have fooled me ^_^. It's kinda of difficult to describe how he acts around me...like he's gentle and sweet, yet rowdy and....either cocky or obnoxious (you pick). But.....it's just...different with him. a good different. I dunno. all i do know is that i want to spend more time with him but i kinda can't because I'm in color guard and girl scouts and he....he's in football and youth group and boy scouts and....all sorts of stuff. Between our two schedules...we have NO free time. *sigh* this sucks

well...I'm going to bed.....i might be on in the morning to blog about....dreams, future events...etc. Night Peoplez.

what a saturday

Today we had our family reunion. Boy oh boy was THAT fun. I am sick...as some may already know, and of course I was coughing ALL day. It hurts just to swallow! My voice sounds horrible and my nose is STILL stuffed up. Last night at the football game it wasn't too bad but then again screaming my head off even if my b.f. WASN'T on the feild ^_^'

9/5/08....but you already knew that.

Ok....friday. Not so much of a tgif for me though. Last night i felt sick....like cold sick. I have a soore throat (still) runny nose (still) and sneezing every now and then......STILL! ITS NUTST! PLUS, i didnt go to color gaurd practice last night....so if we learned anything new....i wouldn't know it..FOR TONIGHT'S FOOTBALL GAME! AHHHHHH. I'm kinda scared. I still feel sick...and if i have a hard time breathing tonight....because of being stuffed up, i'm going to ask if i ABSOLUTELY HAVE to do the show. If they say no...because of being in not so good physical condition, then im sitting out...or i'll be a runner or something (runners collect flags).

On the brighter side...i didnt have any homework last night so i could go to sleep at 7 instead of 10...like I did do. ^_^. I slept ALLLLLL night! No one called for me *cough cough* Dan*cough cough* but thats ok. I got to talk to him this morning. He gave me his jersey to wear and said about putting flowers out for my dad (he died in january and his birthday is THIS sunday). Dan wouldn't be able to come on sunday cause he's going to a football game but we could go some other time. He WANTS to go....which is shocking to me....he never met my dad. Hell, my last boyfriend never met my dad. *shrug* oh well. So, thats good that he wants to go. One complication....haven't said anything to mom yet ^_^. I dont want to get her upset especially with the pressure of the rhodes family reunion coming up on saturday. But....we'll survive. Hopefully ^_^.

welp, gotta wrap this up, talk to youz later!

update

we're sitting in class, Our english teacher telling us about citations and stuff, and everyone is working on their posts. HAHAH. Its really funny. the one girl in my class is using this program right now and i wanna ask what it is...but can't because teacher's talking. I'm a respectful person....but typing and listening is another story ^_^.



Last night at color gaurd....I was really upset, angry. I was having a bad night. First, While doing the third song, i hit my right shoulder REALLY hard. It probably is gonna bruise but so far it hasn't. And ron, our instructor, he is now making me jazz run AND doing HUGE figure eights AT THE SAME TIME! UUUGH! It made me so mad. I'm having a hard time so as it is and he just keeps making it worse for me! And another thing, it felt like i was being ignored ALL day yesterday. And i kinda still am. Well then of course the bonehead i have FIVE FREAKING CLASSES WITH decides to start on me in homeroom today. UGH he makes me so mad. I just wish i could hit him, he's lucky i can't though. Then he'd really hate me ^_^. So yea.
*after school*
I didn't get to see dan much today....and he hardly said anything when i did. In fact, when i walked over to him, he looked like he was looking for someone ^_^ it was kinda sad that i slightly scared him. Or atleast I think I did. HAHA

Not much else to say......update later...or tomorrow...whichever!