*screams bloody murder* (4/21/09)

I have WAAAAAY too much on my plate. I have homework to catch up and make up (AGAIN!), girl scout t-shirts to make (12 or 13 of em!), chores to finish, color guard to practice for....it's too much for me. I have so many people putting things on me and myself to blame for a majority of it as well. I don't know how people do it! you have those kids that get all their work done, have time for fun FUN things, and are like top of their class. GUYS, TELL ME YOUR SECRETS!!! I want so bad to get my grades up and to get all my work done on time or whatever but.....there just aren't enough hours in the day. Your also talking to the girl who stays up every nigh until roughly eleven o'clock.

I HATE DRIVING

ok.....I have my permit and everything but i always dread going out driving. The only one who'll take me is my uncle and i dont see him often (once a month if im lucky). I njust went driving for like an hour and a half, yea. My turning is getting better but i stil had some issues. My uncle usually takes me on back roads (which i appreciate) but today i drove through some towns a bit. i think i did ok...but i still hated it. *shrugs* I still have to do it. i have like 56 hours and 15 minutes left til i have 60 hours. Which means momma dearest is going to have to take me out. and like she said, "i have to get over my issues and do it". Cause its kinda her fault i dont have many hours right now. she refuses to take me out. But maybe that'll change. dunno.

Well, i gotta get working on homework now. Later skaters!

*sigh*

Welp, another day i have gone feeling sick to my stomach over my thoughts. I HATE THIS!!!!! why can't i be like a typical teenager, carefree? I am tired of letting things that are so dumb get to me. But i really can't help it. I have always been like this. Wish i wasn't though. *sigh* i don't know what to do about this. I had an idea but i don't think i'll get to it tonight. Maybe though.

i guess i better finish my homework if im going to this open mic night at school (im not singing though). LATER SKATERZ!

after watching a movie...

I have now made a personal goal. I watched HSM3 and now have made Learning to waltz and doing it at a school dance a personal goal of mine. Specifically to a song from the movie, but i dunno how that will work out with the DJ we get. But that would be SO cool. No one (it seems) knows how to waltz at our school so why not re-introduce the concept to those of us "young folk" (<----i sound old). I have a feeling though it wont go over too well. But i have to start taking chances. I'm getting tired of playing it safe and losing out on opportunities. I rarely take risks in school so...*shrugs* time for another change of heart.