Countdown = 3.5 days

I have two whole days and three half days left of school. Still kinda freaking out a bit trying to get my bearings straight about CTC next year. For all of my things for next year it's going to cost close to three hundred dollars! That's if i get an art kit though. I don't know. Then of course over the summer, when i get back from west Virginia, mom says I'm gonna get a job. I have no idea where I will work and I don't know if I'll be able to handle talking to people I don't know. I'm a very shy person and don't like talking to strangers. I lived a sheltered life a bit so its hard for me. If I can find a decent paying job where I don't have to talk to people, I'd be happy. Now of course there is the issue that it has to be close to home, since I don't have my license yet. Anyways, it's kind of exciting.

Yes well I better get off so my friend can take a test. Later skaterz!!!

The countdown continues (5/28/09)

Still have a lot to do. In fact i have to do ten blogs i think by tomorrow. for the whole marking period though. don't know how many i have so far.*scavenges the whole house for report cards and progress reports* ok so i'm figuring that my fourth marking period started about april 13th. and including this blog i have eleven since then. YAY! I'm well on my way to a decent grade, i hope. ^_^.

OH!!!!! did i write that danny and lindsay had their baby girl?! it was about three weeks ago! They named her Lucy. She's cute! In the one episode they had her at the lab in the lounge or whatever and they had blake watching her. HAHAH danny went over to her and adam comes off and says "look out! here comes daddy." In fact the exact quote of the whole scene is as follows:
Danny: How's Lucy?
Lindsay: She's great. Her first visit to the lab is a big hit.
Danny: What, uh... what's Blake doing right now?
Lindsay: Oh, he's so good with babies. She adores him.
Danny: No, she doesn't adore him. The only man in her life is me. (To Blake)Hey, buddy! Don't you have some DNA to look at?
(Lindsay chuckles)
Adam: Watch out, Blake, here comes daddy!

*rolls on the floor laughing hysterically* i love them!

not much else to write about. me and the new BF are good. he's in trouble a bit but he doesnt care. He's working a lot. same way i will be in about three weeks. working my backside off. west virginia here i come. story for another time though.

well, time to hit the books again. study my buttox off for finals. yeehaw.

not many days left (5/26/09)

Well, i have officially ended sylvan. I wish i could have gone over time management again but i didnt have enough hours left. I only have (NOT including today)seven days left of school. AAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!! its a little scary to think that in eight days i will technically be in my senior year!

*screams bloody murder* (4/21/09)

I have WAAAAAY too much on my plate. I have homework to catch up and make up (AGAIN!), girl scout t-shirts to make (12 or 13 of em!), chores to finish, color guard to practice for....it's too much for me. I have so many people putting things on me and myself to blame for a majority of it as well. I don't know how people do it! you have those kids that get all their work done, have time for fun FUN things, and are like top of their class. GUYS, TELL ME YOUR SECRETS!!! I want so bad to get my grades up and to get all my work done on time or whatever but.....there just aren't enough hours in the day. Your also talking to the girl who stays up every nigh until roughly eleven o'clock.

I HATE DRIVING

ok.....I have my permit and everything but i always dread going out driving. The only one who'll take me is my uncle and i dont see him often (once a month if im lucky). I njust went driving for like an hour and a half, yea. My turning is getting better but i stil had some issues. My uncle usually takes me on back roads (which i appreciate) but today i drove through some towns a bit. i think i did ok...but i still hated it. *shrugs* I still have to do it. i have like 56 hours and 15 minutes left til i have 60 hours. Which means momma dearest is going to have to take me out. and like she said, "i have to get over my issues and do it". Cause its kinda her fault i dont have many hours right now. she refuses to take me out. But maybe that'll change. dunno.

Well, i gotta get working on homework now. Later skaters!

*sigh*

Welp, another day i have gone feeling sick to my stomach over my thoughts. I HATE THIS!!!!! why can't i be like a typical teenager, carefree? I am tired of letting things that are so dumb get to me. But i really can't help it. I have always been like this. Wish i wasn't though. *sigh* i don't know what to do about this. I had an idea but i don't think i'll get to it tonight. Maybe though.

i guess i better finish my homework if im going to this open mic night at school (im not singing though). LATER SKATERZ!

after watching a movie...

I have now made a personal goal. I watched HSM3 and now have made Learning to waltz and doing it at a school dance a personal goal of mine. Specifically to a song from the movie, but i dunno how that will work out with the DJ we get. But that would be SO cool. No one (it seems) knows how to waltz at our school so why not re-introduce the concept to those of us "young folk" (<----i sound old). I have a feeling though it wont go over too well. But i have to start taking chances. I'm getting tired of playing it safe and losing out on opportunities. I rarely take risks in school so...*shrugs* time for another change of heart.

i have great ideas but...

I never am brave enough to do them or share 'em. OK, i really like dancing, never took a class in my life, just like it. Today i was listening to my ipod and heard Rob Thomas's "this is how a heart breaks" well I'm sitting there and thinking of these GREAT ideas for a dance routine to it. Problem is, i don't know how to choreograph nor do i know if i myself am even good at dancing. I've gotten a variety of feedback. I just don't know. In my head, its REALLY cool looking and awsome beyond belief, i just can't really put it into action. *sigh* oh well. or if anyone could help me out....that'd be wonderful.

Back to reading for AR again....wish me luck.

my relationship

Ok....me and kyle were having a little problem lately. We were just not having good times and it seemed like it was falling apart a bit. BUT now we are better. We actually concluded that we see each other TOO much. Instead of not enough like others (*cough cough* mom and dave *cough cough*) He actaully wasn't in school yesterday and i had a really good day. I hate to say that but its true. When i called him, he couldn't shut up. Which is quite opposite than what it usually is. He isnt here today and wont be for the rest of the week either and monday i wont be here so.....its probably for the best. And no more hanging out on weekends. thats another thing with this issue. We would hang out like every weekend since we've been together and it was just too much. So, unless we really want/ need to, no more getting together outside of school. It'll be fine though. We'll work things out yet. Even my mom was hoping we work it out because she likes him. She thinks me and him are good together. (sadly i was getting bored with him and he was frustrating me a lot. Then i really got into CSI:NY and i sorta kinda wanted a guy like danny messer. Weird i know but i really like his character.) Well, i think im done ranting for today. I have a lot of reading to do yet for AR. Wish me luck!

If you didn't watch CSI:NY last night and don't like spoilers, TURN AWAY NOW!

*UBER SQUEE* IT'S A GIRL!!!!!! Danny gets a little princess. So much for his male dominant family history theory. I think next time, he'll listen to Stella. She told him to think of girl names but stubborn old Dany wouldn't listen. Like usual.

For some stupid reason, i was actually looking for Lindsay last night. I completely forgot she was in Montana with family.DUH!!! *smacks forehead* silly me.

New fave songs

I forgot to mention. I now love Karmina! They have great songs. My fave 2, "the whoa song" and "the kiss" (mainly because i heard them while watching Danny x Lindsay clips ^_^) But they are really good! Look em up.

can't think straight

Have you ever had those moments where you just can't think straight? Like it occurs when you hear a song and you get to thinking. Happens to me a lot. Sadly. I hear a song and my emotions take over, send my mind racing. I question things, wonder "what if"s, stuff like that. And you know, with me, that can be dangerous. *chuckles* I can't think as to why i do that. *shrugs* something i just have to get over, grow out of i guess. Now the questions are "when" and "how".

How many folks reading this watch CSI:NY? *counts hands* OK.....Hopefully most of you are Danny x Lindsay Fans. yes? Thats good ^_^. I just find it somewhat Ironic that i fall madly in love with this pairing. (given I have an Ex named Dan and Lindsay spells her name EXACTLY the same as me) Weird huh? *shrugs* yea well......Who here can't wait til Lindsay has the baby? *counts hands again* Me either! I wanna know if its a boy or girl.......see how protective danny has to be ^_^ Lol. And just a little side note, I agree with Mac. Danny's gonna make a GREAT daddy!

OK, not much else to say. Gotta get a little work done here and there today. Wish me luck.

It's friday the thirteenth, bright and sunny with a chance of Happiness???

I know strange title but I'm tired so i came up with that strange little blurb. Well, i finally got all my grades up enough to perform. Last night was my official first performance. It was OK. The scenes i was in went well (or at least i think so). A few minor glitches but none with me. But musical is the exact reason why I'm so tired. I actually stayed up for another hour and a half from when i got home (so if you do the math i got home at ten thirty and went to bed at twelve) *picks at eyelashes* ugh, i still have gunk on these things. That's one of my least favorite parts. you gotta where makeup til you look like a circus clown. But it comes off (try telling that to the guys....they'll still cringe when you put eyeliner on em.) Yes the men too have to where makeup....the extent of it it MUCH less than what us females have though.

Did i mention that last night, during opening, was slightly awkward. let me tell you why. During opening i have to stand in the aisle (right center to be exact) and we basically have to sing into peoples ears and stick our butts in the opposite peoples faces. But i got used to that....but its more of Who's ear i was singing into. MY THIRD GRADE TEACHER!!!!! her husband was sitting to her right so he was farther away. She didn't even look at me (which actually can be considered a good thing). Yea...so that's the highlight of my night.

I feel like going to sleep......my goodness am i tired. and to think i have a show starting at EIGHT tonight.....which means i wont get home til eleven!!!!Heaven help me. I'm going to be dead tomorrow. and tomorrow I'm insanely busy too! 8:30 to 10:30 i have sylvan....then 11 to 3 i have a girl scout cookie booth.....then i have a few hours to go home and get stuff together.....then i have the last show of the week.....last show for this year actually. Kyle is probably trying to convince his mom to let him spend the night at my house Saturday night but i highly doubt his mom will give. i mean i don't know what the big deal is....my mom will be there, and she'll make sure he stays wherever we put him and I'll stay downstairs (if i don't give him my bed that is since i can easily sleep upstairs.) I haven't asked mom if he can stay over (if his momma says yes) yet, but i think I'll do that tonight...if he's still game that is. Like he's already spending all of the day with us so....why not the night too? anyways........

Oh and for those you who have read previous entries.....my wrist feels a little better. I don't know exactly what i did to it but I'm not wearing my brace today to see how it goes. From typing the way i am I'm starting to get slight, sharp pains but i can tolerate that pretty well. Also depending on how i bend it, it cracks......which somewhat frightens me. Because like i said, i don't know what i did to it.....and the nurse just gave me ice the first day...i guess she couldn't tell if i had strained, sprained, or broken it.....it's not broken that's for sure...but i still don't know. I think it'll be one of those things that'll go away eventually like usual. I did something similar to my ankle once but in like a week the pain went away. Hakuna Matata! ^_^

Do you folks want me to explain the title? because if not......then you probably should read this paragraph. I think i will explain for those of you who are confused though. OK....Friday the thirteenth (as most/ all of you guys know) is know as a bad luck day. Why I'm not ENTIRELY sure but its bad luck. SO today i was told it's supposed to be all nice weather and what not....and I'm having a good day so yea.....that's why i put that.

I can't think of anything else to update on....so i should probably stop rambling.

ok. I've got good news and bad news

the good news is i got my grades up so i can perform (if the teachers put it in by Thursday). The bad news is, i hurt my wrist in fitness and weight training and am having a hard time moving it a lot (i can bend it slightly but that's the extent of that.) even now i have to type one handed. and that slows my typing down a lot. but the whole funny thing about the "accident" it was the marines in charge of my class (gym!!!) and they seemed to feel really bad that i hurt myself. The youngest of the two (yes there were two of em) seemed the most sympathetic. * a few hours pass and wakes up from a nap* well it feels a little better since i slept for half an hour. I jerked myself awake once and that didn't help it but i think I'll live. Probably just strained it slightly....*nods* just give it a little LITTLE break and im good ^_^.

No comment- No title

Nothing to say. Too sad really. I have so much on my mind right now. What was added to it makes thing SOOOO much worse.

*sigh*

Nothing much to write. I have had bad weeks back to back lately. This week is starting the second one. Monday sucked, and today did too. There is no point in saying names, all i know and/ or will say is that I'm tired of drama, BS, and other crap from people who i have made our friendships history or at least water under the bridge. They need to keep comments to themselves, say it quieter and not around people whom still like me, or butt out of my business. That's it. And if you are someone who leaves an offensive comment, apparently you have wronged me and are "defending" yourself. Just saying. I don't want to start anything with anyone, this is strictly venting. K? Like i said, I've had bad weeks, now back to back, and i need to let off some steam before i really blow up on someone and feel bad about it later. It's better this way. All apposed, leave now ^_^. *sigh* i think i might be getting off topic....ha ha ha. *shrugs* oh well. Its my blog, I'll ramble if i want, just means i have a longer entry. And i don't think my teacher minds. *stops to think of what else to say* I got nuffin. Welp it's back to work so i can get my history and english grades up so i can perform in musical next week. I want to SOOOOO bad and i can't seem to get em up.....EEERRRRRGGGG!!!!!! *hangs head* i hate my lack of motivation. Even now, i'm sitting here typing away (for an assaignment of sorts though) and not getting important things done. I still have history to make up and finish, i have spanish that was due today to do yet, this of course is english but might not help me for next week, and a digital photography summary of our project to write. type. AAAAAAHHHHHHH work overload. *pretends to be drowning* HEEEELLLLLPPPPPP! Ok, enough horse play. Time to get crackin again! WISH ME LUCK! *tells self* ganbatte!

hey hey!

What's shakin' Bacons? Not too much to update on.....Life goes on is all. Other than that, like i said, nothing else.

Random Update

Sorry haven't been on in a while. Busy busy. Musical so far is going good. Practices are long and there is a lot of dancing to remember, combine that with singing and you have one heck of a challenge. It's hard. But fun regardless.

Sno-ball was SOOOOOOOOOO much fun! I danced with kyle all night, didn't have to deal with drama, stayed in one general area....i wish all my dances were like that. Sadly they probably won't be. But i don't care. My wonderful boyfriend makes it all worth while.

I finally finished that KaceHanaki project of mine. I already posted it on dA. It turned out really nice too. But now i have another project for Kyle's pastor. I really don't wanna mess it up. All I can do is try though.

Tomorrow is valentine's day and for once in my life....I HAVE PLANS FOR IT!!!! Me and kyle are going for dinner and a movie. Hopefully he's ok with the diner i picked.....and it's not too expensive (one thing kyle's mom worried about). I'm not like most girls though. I can be a fairly cheap date. Hell we could have went to McDonalds for all i care. But he would have said no to that for sure. Yea well.

Gotta go now...class soon over.

surprised.....

I got a message on facebook from my boyfriends pastor. He asked me to create a logo from a few pictures they already have on their website. It might be a little tough bit all i can do is try. Now for the surprise part.....Why me? My art's not all that great and its kind of out of no where. So once again....why me? I'm sure there are other artists at his church...but i guess i was the first he thought of. *shrugs* i have no idea. I want to ask kyle about it but i don't want to come off sounding aggrivated by it. Because i'm not. I'm somewhat honored by it really. Besides....he probably knows nothing about it. I don't know.

voice over acting

OK Here's the situation. I have been thinking of doing graphic design for almost three years now. Doing it meaning pursuing it as a career. BUT recently i have been reverting back to what i wanted to do before it, Voice over acting. Voice over is a kind of acting where you're not in front of a camera, but a microphone instead. If you have ever watched cartoons, you are LISTENING to voice over. It's what gives cartoon characters personality...well except steamboat willie but that's before this was probably even considered. Ha ha. Anyways. I watch a lot of anime....and i find it so fascinating that different characters can be played by one person. The person who plays Ichigo from Bleach for example also plays the third exam proctor in Naruto (Naruto vs. Neji; Sasuke vs. gaara, etc.). I think that's amazing ^_^. But also to give a character personality, you need a special person! I think i could make it in this field. Why? Because whenever you hear me, i might sound like a five year old, a Texan, or some other random voice. That's how i am. I am always trying different accents and no matter which one i do.....i always make my friends laugh. That gives me a good feeling. I would give this a chance but it seems almost impossible to get into. because just like regular acting....its in the "fame" category. But i want to do it SO bad. Atleast go to an audition and see if I would stand a chance. Me being new to it might not look too good but i can try. Problem is...i live next to no where near a recording studio OR anywhere where there might BE an audition. Not looking too good for me now huh?

what a day ^_^

Yesterday was SOOOO much fun! I went to the farm show with my GS troop AND my bf. LOADS of fun. We didn't do too much. walked around, bought some stuff....ate...and walked some more. That's all there is to do up there. Kyle bought a knife with a wolf scene painted on the blade (it looks REALLY pretty and he'd never use it...its just for show ^_^). I bought myself a new jacket. It'll definitely keep me warm and it has wolves on it ^_^ (if you haven't taken notice by now...i REALLY like wolves) and whats even nicer is that the guy cut me a break on it. He was really nice. The others, no clue what they got. I know the other girl got a Steelers bag and a few other things, but the leaders...no idea.

The day before this...i got my hair cut. FINALLY. I wanted to cut my perm out so bad but i got my hair layered and that took most of it out so it's all good. Kyle didn't even notice on Saturday til i actually said something! he's so oblivious. Dave and Jr. noticed almost right away....but Jr didn't say anything either til i said something. Oh well.

Well, i better get back to work. I owe a LOT of assignments and i'd rather not fail (even though i probably will) wish me luck.

MAJOR Update

Hey peoplez. Sorry i haven't been on in so long. There was an issue with this whole blogging thing but it has been dealt with and is long over (thank goodness). So i guess it's safe to be posting again. If not i will have to revert BACK to my alternative assignment and that will be the end of it all. K? OK.....moving on.

Well, me and kyle are still together. Next Friday, i think (don't have a calendar in front of me) will be three months for me and him ^_^ YAY. I am so happy with him. I don't know why but i HONESTLY believe that me and him will last a LONG time (in others words- marriage) I find there to be nothing wrong with talking about stuff like that with him, and that's the best part of it ^__^. I can share anything with him and vise verse.

Welp, better get off now ^__^ class soon over.